Today was one of the best days, so far. I spent more time sleeping, more time talking to my Mom, and less time feeling tired. We spent the afternoon playing a game. And then, I stepped out onto the roof. The sky was leaden grey, cloudy and muggy. I missed the sunset. I missed the […]
I have spent much of the day sleeping. In the evening, I chatted with my Mom. Susheela is recovering slowly, one step at a time. I feel each day I have run a marathon. Since I haven’t really had a fever in two decades, it’s hard for me to understand this fatigue. It’s unlike anything […]
Today is a tough day. I had a bit of a rasping cough and more fatigue today. My Mom continues to be better, while Susheela is given another experimental injection. But. Every now and then, I am astonished at what I receive. I am going to paste here an exchange that deeply touched me. I […]
The chaos of normal living. Do the dishes. Do the laundry. Empty the trash. Clean the table. Dishes. Sink. Clothes. Garbage cans. Dishes. Sink. Clothes. Garbage cans. The certainty of doing the seemingly mundane gives you a strange comfort. Your mind’s one attempt at devising some sense of control in an increasingly uncontrollable world. Today, […]
I struggled with red ants the whole day today while trying to work at my laptop. “What? Work? Now?” you may ask. Well, there are more bills I can count right now than ever, and working is one way to bring in some semblance of normalcy to this world. So, there were ants as well […]
I have never been a particularly hopeful person. Years have ground hope into dust. I have never been much of a person to have faith, either. Many more years have bred cynicism, that toxic blend of caustic bitterness and cynicism settling somewhere deep in my soul. India lies marooned in despair. I have aged a […]
For the last two days, I have been observing three roaches, who had congregated on the forgotten dishes in the sink near the kitchen. In the flurry and mess of life over the last three days, I had left a pile in the sink. It’s that mess that attracted these roaches. It’s against my general […]
Hey SM! I know you’re in a very difficult situation but I felt I feel relieved if I share with you. I lost my uncle yesterday as he was suffering from pneumonia. He was healthy ,fit and strong. He was a very disciplined person. He is survived with two daughters of age 21 and 15 […]
The day dawned blue. And then, slowly as the afternoon moved into evening, the blue was enveloped by dark, cool clouds. Then the rain. The wind rustled in, eager to make its own mark. I stood on the terrace, gathering the clothes I had hung out to dry and breathed in. The green. The earth. […]