Rewiring Our Memories


Musings

That’s me at the Thiruvanmiyur beach in Chennai last week. Let me tell you a story about that bench.  Our memories are transitory. They shift and change. And as we grow into them, their character changes. Scientists know that our memories are fallible.  They also know that the brain is hardwired to remember the bad […]

May 14, 2022

Finding The Tent


Musings

Nine years ago, I was backpacking in China. In the middle of the Taklamakan desert with two good friends. We had journeyed across the heart of Xinjiang Province for days together. It was summer, and although we had seen snow in the morning in Kashgar, just a few hours later, we were in the middle […]

April 9, 2020

This Kid Needs A Name Too


Musings

My family tells me that I was born with a twin. A baby boy. He didn’t live longer than 18 days, and he was never named. During the rare times we spoke about this, my Mom would tease me that it was I who had contributed to the little baby’s death. Apparently, I took most […]

February 6, 2020

When Happiness Is Awe


Everyday

It is bitterly cold. The tea stall owner is doing brisk business. I am wearing thick gloves and wrapped up in a long coat, but I can still feel the cold seep in through to my bones. My taxi driver, a smiling Nepali who speaks little English, promises me that he will wait, so I […]

October 9, 2019

Where’s The Faith? Walking The Camino


Everyday

It’s a walk of faith, I tell myself. I would walk 800-km from France to Spain to find faith. A walk to dispel my inner cynicism and believe in the essential goodness of humanity. That walk is the Camino de Santiago, an ancient pilgrim trail that starts in different places in Europe, culminating in the […]

September 10, 2019

My Enduring Affair With Chennai


Musings

I am sitting on Marina Beach, Chennai on an upturned canoe sometime in 2004. Next to me is a guy – Suresh. I watch the waves recede. Ebb. Flow. Recede. Relentless. Suresh turns to me and breaks the silence. “So, let’s talk about you and me.” I almost fall off the canoe and hurriedly clamber […]

August 7, 2019

My Other Soulmate


Everyday

I have written a lot on this blog of my soul friend, Birdy, but I haven’t told you about my other soulmate. I usually don’t write about my other relationships much because I thought I would keep those private. But what’s the point of keeping a blog where I promise to be honest and open […]

August 6, 2018

A Cycle Of Gratitude To Remember


Musings

There it was. A runner who intends to cycle 150+km in a day. Did I succeed? Did I learn something from it? My task: An inviting stretch from Bangalore to Mysore. My gear: A Giant bike fitted with an 18-speed Shimano gear system. My mistakes: No cyclist in their right sense would try the Kanakapura […]

August 1, 2018

Can I Do It?


Musings

Every now and then, I decide to step outside the confines we draw around ourselves. This month has been enervating, tiring, exciting, and promising. This month started off with me being angry – after a long time – and I sat with that anger. I didn’t react. Previously, I had turned to drugs of comfort […]

July 25, 2018