No More


It seems that I have this running battle with happiness. I try hard to maintain an amicable relationship with her but happiness doesn’t like me much. Perhaps she feels claustrophobic as me. Whoever tries to hold on to me will never obtain me. So too with happiness. Leave it alone, perhaps it may come but […]

December 3, 2007

Tears of Mind


I am clearly not normal. There are tears in the fabric of my mind. Great rotting holes in my thoughts. Sample this: I step out from office reasonably ok. I have had a pretty good day at work. I have been feeling quite happy. I am calm. I step out. Joby makes a remark about […]

November 28, 2007

Rage I care not


I turned here to write. But it seems I can’t do much of it. I am asked why do I rage? Well – give me a reason not to? Yes lots. But then my life is not about reason. It is not about logic – it is not about finding happiness but living it. I […]

November 27, 2007

Pipe Dreams


Oh! My left eye is fluttering! My mother always tells me that if the left eye flutters, it is a sign of good luck. Or was it the right eye? Grin. Today is a holiday in India. Gandhi Jayanthi. Today was also the day of a cricket match between India and Australia. I just finished […]

October 2, 2007



Ah, I have spent the last two weeks (has it been that long since I wrote here?) being ill. I have been afflicted with a strange bug that doctors have taken two tests to find out and now still require another third one before they find out what it is. So I wait. And now, […]

September 28, 2007

Pebbles and Charms


Mild sun. Low clouds. But no rain. The rains have stayed away today. Just a mild shower yesterday – promised to be a precursor to a mammoth storm but now again, as I write this, it’s raining again. But it’s been a good weekend so far – a little reading – right now I am […]

September 16, 2007

A Harrowing Journey


It’s been a long long week or so it seems. The last entry here was on Saturday and I never thought it will take me another week to post another. It’s been a week of rain here in Bangalore. Rain rain rain…washing through the days, a welcome cleanser of the soul but here in this […]

September 15, 2007



Saturday morning here. The sun is out –initially almost as if he was hesitating –a dash of blue skies and a riot of grey before he made up his mind. And now, it is a blaze of heat, warmth and all that is glorious in the world. I got up at 7:15AM because there was […]

September 8, 2007

Leaf Dust

Everyday, Musings

Where have all the days gone? The minutes that imprint themselves into the vacant spaces of our days? So much has happened the past few weeks…I feel like I have traversed into time —into the past pages of our lives, journeyed into the future in the promised pages of our lives and somehow forgot the […]

September 2, 2007