The Immeasurable Resilience Of Us


Musings

“One more drive through Bangalore’s emptied roads. One more visit to the hospital. And this time, I hope not to go back again for a long, long, long time.” That. That is what I wrote in my last blog post.  We make wishes, we spin our thoughts on the fragile whispers of tomorrows, and hope, […]

June 6, 2021

The Yellow Umbrella Of Hope


Musings

Today morning, I was working out on the roof of my parents’ house. From the corner of my eye, I noticed that my old friends, the mynas, were back.  The neighbor has blocked the chimney to prevent them from nesting, yet there they were, squawking around. I stopped my workout to observe them for a […]

February 26, 2021

The Kindness Of Memories


Musings

I was rummaging through my wardrobe shelves, looking for a charger for my phone, when I found a bunch of old photo albums. I randomly opened one of them, and I smiled as the first photo stared back at me. There I was. Back in 2002, teaching English in an international school in Bangalore with […]

February 18, 2021

To Just Be: A Portrait Of A Woman


Musings

I usually juggle my days between my apartment and my parents’ home in Bangalore. There’s no fixed schedule to this juggling, unlike before the pandemic when I visited my parents only on the weekends.  But no matter where I am, I step out in the evening when the heavy weight of the day has settled. […]

February 11, 2021

The Smiles Of Grief


Musings

It is a typically mild Bangalore morning when I step out for my run. I have been dawdling a bit since I woke up, and I am impatient to ‘get on’ with the day. What this getting on means, I really don’t know. But there’s always somewhere else that I want to be. Something else […]

February 2, 2021

Regrets Are Not Final


Musings

Regrets are not final. They are redeemable coupons, urging us to look for the good in our self and others.  I was in Chennai in November last year. It was a typically hot and humid day when I came across this small outlet tucked away near a corner just behind Besant Nagar’s beach.  “Madras Coffee […]

January 29, 2021

Life Lessons From My Mother


Musings

My mother turns 80 today.  One of the blessings of this pandemic is that it has brought us closer to what really matters in life. For most of the last decade, I have been living away from my parents – with someone or by myself. Work initiated the move. And then, independence necessitated it further. […]

December 16, 2020

Vulnerability Is Our Superpower


Musings

I traveled to Chennai last month.  There, I met a person whom I have written about previously on this blog. Years ago, this friend, who I still believe I have a magical connection with, chose to accept her boyfriend’s demand to not be friends with me. It wasn’t a meeting that the person wanted. It […]

December 13, 2020

Creating My Eulogy & Epitaph


Musings

Whenever I fill up an application form, I am asked about my religion. Officially, I am a Hindu. But at heart, I am a Buddhist. I have been fascinated with Buddhism for the last two decades – not just because the Buddha was an atheist – but because it works so much with death. I […]

November 12, 2020