The walls are whiteLemony in their warmthThrough the windowsStretch cement blocks of loveLabored testimonies that we humanscan build walls faster than friendships My bed stands erectits sheets of gold aching against a dim sunArch my feet against the leather backed chairThe repose for my buttThat sits here day through day These walls are not wallsThey […]

October 11, 2010

When To Give an Arse


I think I detect a subtle shift in my inherent body mechanism. We come to grips with life armed with some practiced responses. Conditioned reactions. Throughout we are taught to control. As a kid, we are told, “now, stop crying.” And we learn. We try not to cry. We are told to be polite and […]

October 9, 2010



Coming back from lunch on Saturday, my sister entered my room, and exclaimed, “Wow. Your room looks so cozy.” I glanced around when she said that. True. It did look cozy that time. The curtains had been drawn. The bright sun outside had been filtered to just a muted light that seemed inviting and lulling. […]

October 4, 2010

The Pursuit of Happiness


That was a lovely Will Smith movie. The Pursuit of Happyness. I watched it some three years ago, and it still stays in my scrambled eggs kind of memory. I am reminded of it as I write this post – it was a touching movie about the triumph of the human spirit. The other day […]

October 2, 2010

Weird. Me.


They call me weird. Freak. Crazy. They call me mad.They call me weird because I talklike the truth is not mine to hide. They call me freak because I sayI value my self just as much as you They call me crazy because I meanwhat I say and do as I say. They call me […]

September 30, 2010

The Miracle of Running


There is something so primordial about running. Maybe it’s in our ancestral genes. I don’t know. I don’t know who passed it on in my family, but it is in my genes, for sure. Last year, when I was watching the insides of my left knee, which the surgeon was kindly slicing through, I had […]

September 28, 2010

Docced Out


I have spent the better part of yesterday and today shuffling between doctors. I am not one to be overly concerned with the mechanics of the human body – I like to think I have a pretty high tolerance for pain. Physical pain, that is. My mental pain threshold, I think is pretty low. But […]

September 18, 2010



Sometime back, a person very dear to me, messaged me in anguish, saying that she felt upset in a relationship and felt used. Through the course of a long sms conversation, I understood just how much of anguish this wonderful person went through – is it wrong to expect attachment from someone when you give […]

September 17, 2010



I have tears in my eyes as I write this. It’s September 16th, a date that has no significance for me whatsoever. Except that it does. For the most unaccountable reason, I suddenly missed my brother.  Perhaps it has to do with reading this fascinating book by Sue Minns called Soulmates. In that, she rips […]

September 16, 2010