I woke up to a sea of mirages,
Morning dewed and
Happiness slewed
Through the dense foliage of a mind
That knows not what it seeks.
A desert of waves,
A chasm of moods
That seek their way
Through blind words
That play their tunes
On music that hears it not.
I lost. Miserably.
Despairingly.
Lost the power of love
Lost the laughter of magic
Lost myself.
I lost peace; surrendered to pieces
Thwarted joy and embraced despair
……..
Yet I know I have not truly lost
That the sea was not an inversion
Of a cruel play of images
Which never fitted into the surface
I had stamped my self
Prodded it with disgust
Loathed it with revulsion
Yet I loved it no less.
Yes, loved it no less.
My self has an other
A beautiful other.
That other is my self.
How much more could I loathe?
How much more could I despise?
Without loving it all the more?
Yes, without loving more.
Within me I am without
And I know what I am without.
